Trials and Pain7/22/2006

Father, I do not understand the need for the severe trials that have come upon me.

My grace will come more upon you, 1 have it to give and you are feeling more tired and peaceful now to receive. The words of your language cannot express this day what was done to you or the depth of your pain. Keep writing me my Child and I will show you the Kingdom of God and bring you to your position. Draw now close to me and I will draw ever closer unto you with all I have to sooth, answer, restore and teach.

There were many things spoken and thought that were right in your trial my Child: there were also some misplaced concepts but nothing that will not be dealt with fully. You are to sacrifice yourself unto me my Child, your flesh is to be used for a wholly, holy purpose. The impact of that statement alone eliminates most of the followers of Christ - why? It is because the road is too harsh, the pains too deep and others cannot see the prize. I have lovingly carefully plotted out for you what you will be. You do have the vision and the impressions of Heaven, you have the prophesy and the vows, the conformations and yes you have the destructive attacks upon you from the enemy when you move closer to me. Your Soul and your flesh suffer terribly

Your Soul was ravaged by a carefully planned assault. You are crushed and degraded, you are shamed and taunted and you are horrified by the menacing level of stealth of evil to revisit upon you an issue you are innocent of. This, especially an issue that Christ is healing in your quiet times....I can heal...I will heal...I have always healed you in your body and especially in your Soul where torment has reined. I also heal you in your Spirit. I heal... and I heal... and I heal, and I allow the assaults to come upon you. Child, you are better for the trials, rather that without them. You grow stronger with the trial, you learn intellectual strength from the trial.

Tears are cleansing from the trial. Trials both motivate and manifest change... it is the only directable impulse that changes life. I do not allow it upon you because I have a malevolent side. I forgive you - I am all good and I cut out all bad. That was a strong attack from evil upon you to question me of my evil nature. The enemy is my enemy too. I fight him with grace and light and truth. The three things that make up me. I also fight him with you the embodiment of those three things I am creating in you upon the earth for now. I am sorry for your pain yes, but you will see I know I can heal all of the pain that the enemy puts upon you and you are always stronger after I heal you. In addition you will have wisdom as I have said but you will also gain anointing and grace. You will show others your suffering and I will see THEIR reaction to your suffering and how they help or not. I will do all of this under the cover of my immense love. I never take away my covering of love on you and never is my scripture more applicapable to you of `love covers a multitude of sins' than when you are sinned on by the evil one when you are under my covering of love. The enemy has to watch my love, your love, people around you love, and you are here with me writing with me stronger love with my admiration love upon you for finding victory and love after the trial.

Now Son, the essence of the trial must be dealt with for your uncomfortable ness I will not tolerate forever. Christ Yeshua must have the time with you to conceptualize you to yourself and your combined existence with Him. Child the enemy does suffer each day seeing this love and healing and victory over his deeds. He is worthy of this suffering for his evil and cutting is very vast. He is also assisted by fallen men and their deeply black hearts to magnify his malevolent ideas.

You are stronger, stronger, and stronger for the trial. Your mind is stronger each time you overpower a thought, you are stronger each time you turn away from temptation and sin. You have never been deceived my Child-all has been enacted to train and to strengthen and intensify you for your call unto me with Christ and the Holy Spirit, You will as well show and share this writing with to others in YOUR love and excitement to help them understand me...their Creator Father.

Do you know that as you write these thousands of words and speak these thousands of words that you ARE fulfilling Christ upon the world as God the Word? A very heavy title my Son but you deserve it today for you are more than the men upon the world. I orchestrated this for you because I love you so much. Many vast things have been changed in you for God as well as many people are changed by you for God.


  • 1 Peter 1:6 You should be exceedingly glad on this account, though for now a little while you may be distressed by trials and suffer temptations.
  • 1 Peter 1:7 So that the genuineness of your faith may be tested, which is infinitely more precious than the perishable gold which is tested and purified by fire
  • Matt: 27: 19 He (Christ) was set down on the judgment seat.
  • 2 Peter 2:9 Now if all these things are true know that the Lord knows how to rescue the Godly out of temptations and trials...
  • James 1:3 Be assured and understand that the trial and proving of your faith bring out endurance and steadfastness and patience.
  • John 16:33 (Yeshua) I have told you these things so that in ME you may have perfect peace and confidence. In the world you have tribulation and trials and distress and frustration; but be of good cheer; be confident, certain, undaunted. For I have overcome the world.
  • Job 9:23 (b) at the calamity of the innocent
  • James 1:12 Blessed is the man who is patient under trial and stands up under temptation, for when he has stood the test and been approved, he will receive the victors crown of life which God has promised to those that love him.
Blessings Children